Saturday, March 12, 2011

Today

We were all inundated with the sad and tragic news of the earthquake/tsunami in Japan. The images are all but disheartening. I tear up easily, so it goes without saying that when I told my kids to turn on the TV while we were having breakfast ( I already knew about the disaster), I wanted to implant some good lessons in them---LIFE lessons. Much has been said and I do not want to flood you with videos and pictures that could break your heart.

Oftentimes, I complain about life way too much. I grinch when people are so incapable of my expectations. I easily fire up when I seem to fall behind schedule. I overreact when my kids misbehave. I silently swear when my husband seems too tired to have a good conversation. I hate the snow. I hate the  gas delivery man. I hate the mall opening at 12 on Sundays. I hate the all-too-short- hem of my dress. I hate the barista at my local Dunkin Donuts for adding too much cream on my coffee. You get the picture. I hate. I hate. I hate. Easily.

But we all do that. C'mon. I am coming clean. So you need to open up too. Yeah, that's the way it goes. I come clean, you come clean. There are so many ways we can handle things but we choose HATE. We pester ourselves and loved ones with so many trivial things. Yes, they are trivial. That non working laptop is trivial, that not-so-bright lamp is trivial, BTW, that no signal phone connection is trivial and so is that slow wifi connection. TRI-VIAL! Not so important! But we make it a big DEAL!!!! I can't log on to FB? TRIVIAL!!!

We focus on the trivial things. As I sit here typing this entry, I am at work overlooking the courtyard of Harvard Medical School, the sun is shining bright. Yet, I am focused only with 2 things: 1. I need to go and sleep, I have been working 2 shifts... blah blah blah. 2. Will this shitty computer work any faster? I fail to see that I am overlooking  THE Harvard Medical School and I disgress to admit that I am not appreciating Mr. Sun. I do not realize how I still have a job. A good and stable job. You see? See what I mean? ISn't it sad that I am feeling so much pain knowing that this is not me. What happened to me?

Maybe, I need to refocus my priorities. I encourage you to do so. That earthquake/tsunami is giving me  a lot of perspective. Sure, there have been a lot of world disasters that happened in the past but for some odd reason, this hit me really hard. Am I just getting old, therefore too scared? Or is it because I see my children and I see a darker world for them? Whichever it is, I know in my heart, yesterday was a HIT, not HATE. I got hit in the heart, really bad.

I am starting this beautiful day with this in mind. My life is beautiful. The world is beautiful. Life is precious. Nothing is more important than an aprreciation to this wonderful life the Creator gave us. That includes the shining sun, the bright sky, the chriping bird, the latte, the working barcode reader at Wal-Mart and that cheerful  Dunkin Donuts barista around the corner of my house.

Time to reflect and refocus!!!

hae a good day peeps!