Saturday, January 7, 2012

Between Loss and Forever

I am friends on FB with Miss Noemi Lardizabal-Dado, a prominent blogger in the Phlippines. I do not remember why and how we met (FB meeting) but I am so glad I am friends with her. She inspires me to be a strong woman, a flexible mother and a passionate one. I may not be as good a writer she is, but I am passionate about writing. I like to write---not in any literary way but a conversational one. Anyway, I know she is part of a book project about mothers who lost their children---to sickness, murder or accidents. I would love to have this book ( I now have a Kindle---thanks Mr. Hubbs), but I know it will drain me so much! I can only imagine the pain of the loss of a child. Nope! I am such a cry baby, you might see the China Sea spill over the Atlantic Ocean. The book is "Between Loss and Forever". If I am to lose a child, I am lost---lost forever. My mother lost 2 of her sons in a senseless way. I know she was so much in pain but she coped really well. I do not know if I could be that great. I just can't be the person that I am, for sure. I had my eldest when I was 21 and he is 13 now ( spilling my secrest, huh?), so basically I entered adulthood via having a child. You know how you imagine how you want to be remebered, or how people would describe you to others? I haven't thought much about that, but I think I know now. It occured to me while I was ( FBing and typing?---no) going back and forth if I should get the book or not.  I want to be defined by who my children would be, I want them to be good human beings and good Christians. Although, being succesful dcotors would be great too. Shhh, don't tell them I told you that. They would say I want them to be doctors because I never was.  Seriuosly, I can not be the same person... would you? After losing a child? I guess some peopl cope better than me. God bless all the mothers in the world!



Heartbreaking!!!

Well, if you still think you want the book, read the blog first and see for yourself. Either way, I know I want this in my Kindle. Happy Saturday!