New Year's Celebration

First things first: I was sick since the Sunday before the new year. So sick, I took 6 500mg Tylenol at 4pm hoping I'd be better for the new year. Nope, made me drowsy and by the time I woke up, I was at Wollaston ( my regular stop) stood up as fast and upon realizing I wasn't supposed to get off there, I went back right in but by then the doors have closed and I fell.to.the.platform--- face first. No, I never told anyone, no one cared enough to ask, I had one bruise on my right knee but I just attributed it to my pain killing skills. Ha! Anything to drown the pain. 

I took the kids to my in-laws where few friends and family celebrated new year with us. 

I am telling you, I have the most amazing friends. From non-sense talks to deep politics--- we can talk all about it. 

But my fave shots are the ones with my little munchkins!

I think it's Allen's debut on my blog! 

Jem and Ate KC!

And this kind of pictures are my fave. Depicts true meaning of family time. 

Hey KC, what with the eye?

On New Year's Day, we went to see few ice sculptures in Boston! 

Then we all decided to eat. Why not?

Then I woke up to this:

Oh bliss!

How about you, how's your new year?

 If I may be honest, my life is not perfect, far from it. But those who matters to me I know love me back and that's all I care. Sure, we need to vent, cry secretly, endure pain silently but in the end--- love triumphs, family wins and above all--- I rise --- slowly, heck-- painfully but I do. This year I claim it. It's for me. I love me. Because without that, I can't love back and I can't forgive and forget. Who am I kidding, I can't even construct a sentence properly because I am sobbing while typing this blog entry. When people really get to know me, they are amazed on how I live my life inspite of. There's  no trickery or facade I create, I just choose to be happy. I choose to care for and love my family. I choose to get up and rise every single morning and see the beauty of the world inspite of the darkness of the night. I get lonely and vengeful sure, but that's just for a moment. I shake it off and put a brave face on. 

The consequences of carrying the burden of pain is too much. It isn't hypocritical to smile inspite of either. It's life. It's life. It happens. Just think about the consequences of your words, actions to the people you say matters to you. Look at it this way, if you can trash talk your friends and loved ones--- what does it say about them? How about to you? If you built a family, stand by it, stand by them. If you have a friend, support her/him--- the only time you can be called such is when you actually defended your friend without their presence. 

How can you care for other children when you can't even care for your own? How can you greet your friends when you can't even kiss your wife, how can you plan a party when you can't buy a gift for your best friend? 

It's never too late to see the goodness of the people close to you. Sometimes we look too far for love or friendships or attention we neglect the people who loved you when you were no one and most likely to be there when you're by your lonesome. 

For this 2015, I want all of you to know, I'm not always the happy person you see. I have my own pains and sufferings, sometimes it's even hard to be me. 

I just rambling now. And crying and hurting. Happy new year, hope you're all happy!